Ingredients of being one of a heck Maldita

It's been forever since I post my last entry. So many things happened. I can't find the right words to explain the whole course of events. So these are just some (and when I say some it's hardly one tenth) of the past events in my life.

We got are report cards. Surprise! I got lower grade in Physics than in Math. At least the grades are almost tolerable. Somehow i felt guilt because I knew i did not try my hardest to improve my grade in Elective physics which got me in this situation. I'm not really into grades this past months. I guess all the problems are taking the toll in my head. But don't worry, I will never let these things be a hindrance for me.

We also have a lot of dose of projects (problems) from our teachers. The most memorable is the term paper. Our group is in deep trouble with Ms. F. She hated our work. And she told us quoted "You cannot graduate next March if you will not pass the term paper." Talking about trouble. Many thought that the only reason why Ms. F is doing this is because she firmly believes that not all of us did it together. But in all honesty we help hand in hand to come up with that term paper. I just wish Ms. F's heart will warm up to us next time.

So much of the academic problems. My friend R is having love problems. And from the look of it I am one of her confidant. But sometimes all I wanna tell her is get a grip of herself because life won't end there. I mean they are not official and to set the record straight they had never been. I can't say if it's just a fling, infatuation or maybe the real thing. However, her constant rumbling get straight into my head. I can't help it! She is luckier than any girl I know (for that matter luckier than me). She doesn't need to have everything. Just take her and his time. There is no need to hurry because there is more in life.

I definitely feel I'm maldita now. There is so many things to think academic, social and emotional. I can be a good listener. You have my word that i won't utter a word to anyone and even let you rattle for hours. Sometimes there is a point when I can't hold onto my silence anymore. It's just a way for me to wake someone up that life never ever (mark my words) revolve to anyone. Problems come and go like opportunities in life.

Ps. I get so worke up with this things. Hope tomorrow will wave out the clouds and bring out the sky.