Unlikely is Bound to Happen

Before I believe that I'm kind of person who always do things routinely. I can foresee my reactions towards certain events. I'm not so accustomed in experiencing highly unlikely events. I think those events are unthinkable for me. But I proved that my reaction is as crazy as my mood swings.

I saw him again last month. I barely remember when but I'm sure it's almost end of February. I don't really want to blog about this because I don't feel the need or any sparks.The event of seeing him again did not really bothered me. What bothered me is my reactions toward that certain event.

The feeling is unusual fro me. It is not what I usually feel whenever I would have the great chance of seeing him. I felt nothing. I just look and I almost turn away. After seeing him that when I realize that what I did is completely extraordinary. It took me minutes to process in my head that I don't mind seeing him.

I thought of him time to time. There are so many things that made me remember him. Sometimes when I think of him it's like thinking of a stranger who passed by without me minding him.

It's funny and confusing. My feelings are all jumbled up. The thought of seeing him before excites me and makes me all giddy inside. I felt every emotions there is in this planet. I'm so accustomed of bothering and feeling something about it. And now that I don't bothered at all I don't think I'm still me.

I know that this is the moment I've waited for. I also know that this is the start of new beginning. This is the moment that I could finally erase every trace of feelings I have for him and dumped it all in the unknown. But I don't know if where my feelings are going is where I want it to be.