Problems Like No Other

It has been almost a month since I've posted here. I guess my life at this point in time is in the period of what many of us will call 'under reconstruction'. No one can really blame me for it. After all the grand revelations revealed to me for the past weeks, no wonder I'm really not in the mood for anything.

I've tried so many times to write some of my thoughts but I always come up with nothing. So I've decided not to post any of it. It seems so 'emo' and nonsense for me (no offense there). It's not that I hate being an 'emo' nor do I hate those who do. Though I find it not necessary to kind of 'shout to the world' my problems. But I what I do like on being an emo is that you can put into writings your feelings and thoughts. Enough of this. I'm starting to drab again.

Well let's go on to the main topic. There are so many events that happened during the weeks I didn't post. I'll start to the 'minor events'. Well it is not really minor but I really have to say it (in this case, write it). I don't know how to say this because I'm not really proud of this stunt our batch pull off this year. Uhmm.... You know when you're in high school there are so many temptations around especially when it comes down in... CHEATING.

Said so i'm so ashamed of this. You know we've been discovered. One from the almost 280 senior students pluck up the courage to speak up and tell the teachers about it. Then other students from the other sections folllow suit. So naturally all the teacher are so strict with us now. Two of our teachers got mad with our batch because one section has been questioned by the higher ups. Then they drag the names of different teachers telling that they are the one in fault because they are not so strict and diligent enough to behave the students. Now, most of the teachers are really mad at us.

But there is a hook in that one. Our section is the only one in the five which do not yet to confirm the cheating incidents in our classroom (even the cream section do. I was told about it). So now the teachers do all their best effort to nudge our conscience. I know it's true because I do cheat when it comes to assignment and one incident during our economics but I don't know what to do. It's difficult to put myself and the others in a situation which I knew will be a big trouble.

The major event wll be shared next time. I haven't had the enough courage to share it now. maybe next time I'm one hundred and one percent ready.